| Location | Hartlepool |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 21/05/2007 |
| Date of Death | 21/05/2007 |
| Visitors | 4,363 since 05/06/2007 |
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Matthew was our very much longed for baby.
We found out that at 20 weeks into the pregnancy we were going to loose baby Matthew, he had a very poorly heart.
He was then delivered when I was just 21 weeks pregnant. He is, and will always be sadly missed. Our arms feel empty not having him to hold. His big brother William wanted him so much too and is very sad he has gone to heaven to be with the angels.
He was born and died on Monday 21st May 2007, loved and gone forever, yet never forgotten. His due date was 2nd October 2007.
One day my baby Matthew, we will meet again, until that time comes know mammy, daddy and William love you so much, stay with us in spirit and keep us strong. I hope 'night nights' is looking after you.
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Your little sister is now with us, the biggest ray of pink sunshine we could ever ask for, thank you for keeping her safe and making her arrival into this world a very happy one. I often see a glint in her eye and I know it's your little soul shining through her!
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Matthew;
I wonder what you would have looked like, how cheeky you would have been, and how much you would have made us laugh, as your big brother does, and it makes me so, so sad that the angels stole you from me. Somedays I feel angry that your heart was so poorly and I wonder why you? why us? I know that is a question that will never be answered and one I will always ask. Please rest in peace and know I am so, so sorry. Mam X x X
You will never be replaced and never be forgotten. We love you.
4 years :))
Its 4 years today since the day you were born. Its so different today from how it felt a few years ago....much easier. Quite normal in fact. A little walk to the hospital later to see your name in the memorial book in th chapel of rest and say a prayer and then come along to the cemetery later and bring some flowers, and pay a visit to Nanna too and everyone else :) Love you little man...always xxx Mama x
Its May once again :)
4 years on and the Month of May is upon us. This month will be a great month. Lots of lovely things planned with your brother and sister; Disneyland Paris - you went once, when you were in my tummy! Then Aunty Nic and Granty are home and we havent seen them since 2006 a very long time. 4 years makes me a much stronger person x x x
Its all OK
Im feeling much less sad today. Stronger. I told your little sister all about you the other day. Oh my she is so very funny. It was strange teling her about you for the very first time, but she just got it. Maybe she wont be quite so upset when we let the balloons go to reach you in heaven. Love you x
nearly 4 years, how time has passed so very very fast looking back. The first year was the longest. It gets much easier as time passes. Im in a good place today. Thank you for giving me the strength and teaching me to live life for exactly what it is. Life is precious, I love it.
Reminded of the sadness
the tears are flowing once again for my friend...it feels so painful knowing what she is going through and I hate it. I wish I could offer some comfort and really be able to help, she used to help me more than she ever really knew. She would look after you and care for you when others didnt ...she never forgot about you ever. She thought about you every day, week, ALL the time! Thats what pains me most because she is possibly THE nicest person the world I have ever had the pleasure to have known and its so very very cruel that she is now going through so much pain in her heart. If you have any way of sending a guardian angel down for her then please send one, look after her and her little babies.
I almost feel unworthy on the tears I shed. It is not even my grief, not my pain. I shed them as I am reminded of the hurt, I hate to know my dear friend is hurting so bad and I can't physically do anything. Feel so helpless. I want to turn back time. I told her just a few weeks ago to 'treasure today' and that she did but it wasnt long enough, God just didnt give them enough time its just not fair he was taken too too soon :( I am so so so sad. Life will never be the same again for them. For us life never really did change because we never really had you. Things just changed because we changed as people as we had experienced something which was tragic and we had you and then you were taken away just as quickly as we had been blessed with you.
Take care up there, be a good boy and look out for uncle Tony, he's the really handsome one who is always smiling. He will take care of you now xxx
I felt very sad
Yesterday...it occurred to me, I never asked Anthony's daddy to look for you and take care of you. It felt so stupid of me, careless and thoughtless but I simply never thought of it til now. And now its too late. Very selfish I know. I almost wanted to ask if it was too late to send a text, would the message still get there in time ....I think not. I can only hope that instinct will overtake and he will find you and give you a big hug from me to you and make sure you are ok, and maybe look after you for a little while til me or daddy get there ourselves.
I am so sad right now about everything and knowing what is to come. I don't like sadness and the way it makes me feel, I would rather avoid it, better that way. easier.
Night night, tomorrow is a big day. St Patricks Day.
I will be coming to the cemetery because it's Tonys send off but I don't come often, I don't like to, again it makes me sad. j will blow you a kiss and stop by, bring you some flowers. Love you sweetheart an never forget you even if sometimes it appears I have x x x
I hate to cry . . .
I rarely cry anymore, I hold back. I have figured out why; when I do, it takes me back to that time when you wee just gone. That deep dark sadness I felt and I dont like it. I hate the memory of how it makes me feel.
Today I have tears, but not for me. For my friend. I am so so very sad for her and I know I cannot help her, I wish I could.
I hate grief and the way it takes your breath away and hurts your heart. I hate the way it reminds me that I once felt it so bad I thought I might die with the pain. I think its often harder when you know its about to happen, with you I had around a week to prepare some may think thats better but I dont really, its too much for the head to handle, perhaps.
So I will wipe my tears, and wear my smile. Look out for Anthony and hold his hand, he may need an extra special cuddle right now too xxx love your mam xxx
In a baby castle, just beyond your eye,
Your baby plays with angel toys that money cannot buy.
Who are you to wish him back into this world of strife,
No, play on your baby, they'll have eternal life.
At night when all is silent and sleep forsakes your eyes,
You'll hear their tiny footsteps come running to your side
Their little hands caress you so tenderly and sweet,
You'll breathe a prayer and close your eyes and embrace them in your sleep.
Now you have a treasure that you rate above all others
You have known true glory,
You are still their mother.
God needed an angel in heaven
When Jesus lived upon the earth so many years ago,
He called the children close to him because he loved them so.....
And with that tenderness of old, that same sweet, gentle way,
He holds your little loved one close within his arms today.....
And you’ll find comfort in your faith that in his home above
The God of little children gives your little one his love....
So think of you little darling lighthearted and happy and free
Playing in God’s promised land where there is joy eternally.
Helen Steiner Rice
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